Alright guys. I have been thinking a lot over the past few days about me being sober for 3 months now and where I stand in my recovery. What I have came to realize that it is not so much that I have replaced my addiction with gambling but its the fact that I have been spending way too much time capping and watching games instead of focusing on what I want to do with my life and where to head with my future. Also the fact that I have lost over $1000 dollars over the past week hasnt helped matters either. I was telling my father the other day that the thing that makes me feel so responsible and mature right now with me being sober is knowing that if my mother (who lives in a different city) could watch my every move on camera throughout my average day she would be very proud of everything I am doing. That statement is true for the most part as I go to work, workout at the gym after work, go to an NA meeting every other night and then go home and go to bed. The thing that made me second look this comment was the fact that she would be very disappointed that I am spending a large portion of my time capping and betting on sports in between these things as I had told her that I had stopped gambling when I quit getting drunk and high. Anyway, basically what I am trying to say here is that if I want to acheive everything I want with my life and future, I need to shift all my energy, effort, and initiative into the task at hand and spend time engaging in positive hobbies, time with friends and family and my career. With that being said, I will be around every once and a while to hang out and see how everyone is doing because you guys are an amazing group of people and I have enjoyed meeting every single one of you. I will POST my NHL picks starting in October of this year for others to bet if they choose as that is what I major in. I am not leaving here, just gonna try to quit the wagers as I dont need the emotional stress anymore. The way I look at is that I can sit here and grind out a whole season of spending endless hours capping and watching games and at the end of the season be up maybe 10-20 units but with all the TIME and EFFORT spent it does not seem WORTH MY WHILE anymore (this is just for me so dont get me wrong guys). I wish everyone well and dont think I wont be around here cause I still will but just not as much and but not wagering, just gonna post NHL picks throughout the NHL season for others. I wish all of you the best in your lives and I will talk to you all soon!!!
Chad Hamilton
Chad Hamilton
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