Just wanted to let everyone know where i have been

[tech fan]

I recieved an e-mail from a member asking if i was ok or mad so i thought i would tell my story i am in the process of trying to stop drinking.i have drank for a long time but the last 3 months i really went out of control.believe it or not i won more $$$$$ in the last month than i ever have gambling just got to the point where i have to stop.ask vols fan he knows.i went 8 days without drinking and then i gambled on some games thursday night and went back to drinking heavy again.in 15 days i have only drank 1 night but it was when i was gambling.i really need to take a break for a while before i lose my family my job and even my life.it was getting so bad that i was hiding vodka bottles all over the house and only drinking vodka because the smell is not as bad and my girl could not smell it on me.i even bought non alcoholic beer to drink with the vodka so if she smelt it i could blame it on the non alcoholic beer.for the first time in a very long time i feel like i have control over it just need to ease back into the gambling side because it is a trigger for me to drink.

Wishing you all the best
jerry

[live jive]

good luck tech hope it works out for ya atleast u have control to realize a problem before it gets alot worse...still stop in even if u arent postin picks just say what up

[WayneChung]

I recieved an e-mail from a member asking if i was ok or mad so i thought i would tell my story i am in the process of trying to stop drinking.i have drank for a long time but the last 3 months i really went out of control.believe it or not i won more $$$$$ in the last month than i ever have gambling just got to the point where i have to stop.ask vols fan he knows.i went 8 days without drinking and then i gambled on some games thursday night and went back to drinking heavy again.in 15 days i have only drank 1 night but it was when i was gambling.i really need to take a break for a while before i lose my family my job and even my life.it was getting so bad that i was hiding vodka bottles all over the house and only drinking vodka because the smell is not as bad and my girl could not smell it on me.i even bought non alcoholic beer to drink with the vodka so if she smelt it i could blame it on the non alcoholic beer.for the first time in a very long time i feel like i have control over it just need to ease back into the gambling side because it is a trigger for me to drink.

Wishing you all the best
jerry

one of my closest friends is the same way and i have pretty much lost the friendship due to alcohol-yet the person does still not see that it destroyed our relationship-BLAMES IT ON ME-ITS TOUGH JERRY-WISH YOU NOTHING BUT THE BEST !!

[Chado1]

Jerry I still have your aol email addy if you ever want to give me a shout feel free to do so. You know I have been sober from crack, coke, weed, booze, ecstacy, perqs, etc. etc. etc. lol for 18 straight awesome mother fucking months now and still staying strong. Family friends and everything are back in my life every since I stopped things are great. You know from before my stories of what I went through and there is nothing I like more than helping the aloholic or addict who still suffers. I am hear for you brother if you need me man. You still have my email addy too? Take care pal!!!

[Moose21]

Jerry, I don't really know you but it sounds like your heart is in the right place. This site and the gambling will always be there, take care of your family first bro. Wish you the best and hope that you can put the drinking behind you. Take care.

[mf12point]

Good luck tech. Pulling for you. Hope everything works out for ya.

[WayneChung]

jerry,did not mean that to sound harsh,i joke a lot on here,but i am an addict also,you have to want to get sober for yourself first,if you really want to do it,like chado said the family and all that stuff will get better-but do it for yourself first brother-sincerely chunger !! ps-i kept the friendship i was telling you about above way to long,because i naturally cut addicts a lot more slack than normal people would,what you said-you have to get away from all those old haunts and things that trigger you-THATS PARAMOUNT-LIKE CHADO SAID-ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU !!

[Chado1]

jerry,did not mean that to sound harsh,i joke a lot on here,but i am an addict also,you have to want to get sober for yourself first,if you really want to do it,like chado said the family and all that stuff will get better-but do it for yourself first brother-sincerely chunger !! ps-i kept the friendship i was telling you about above way to long,because i naturally cut addicts a lot more slack than normal people would,what you said-you have to get away from all those old haunts and things that trigger you-THATS PARAMOUNT-LIKE CHADO SAID-ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU !!

#1 thing is that it has to be for yourself and yourself ONLY...because I have seen too many addicts/alcohlics go back out when shit hits the fan because their primary motive was to get sober for someone else or something not themselves....they get the fuck this I'll show them attitude when the people things they were doing it for make them angry and cause resentments but if its for yourself you arent going back out to spite anyone or hide or fool nobody...you have to live with yourself everyday and it MUST I repeat MUST be for you only or there is not point in even trying!!!

[WayneChung]

I PRETTY MUCH ENDED A 15 YEAR RELATIONSHIP TONIGHT-i would not have said anything till i read your post-she was hiding vodka bottles all over my house-we can not even talk to each other now-she is coming to pick her stuff up monday and i will be so glad when that day has come and gone // PS-THIS IS PRETTY FREAKY !!

[Cashmoneyasians]

I know you will get thing back under control Jerry. Take care of yourself my friend. Gambling will always be around....just want to make sure that you are too. Take care my friend.

Terry

[Chado1]

Jerry you have mail at your JV email address..

[baseballdave]

Jerry, you have mail buddy.
dave

[skyz]

take care family 1st, come back to gambling after everything settle down....money always around.

[FRITO]

'rehab is for quitters'

On a serious note :
One letter is the deciding factor in anyones future.

You can choose to (run) your own life or you can (ruin) your own life.
Nobody else can make that choice but you. Make the right choice brother.

[quote] addiction therapist:
("the light can not shine on that which is kept in the dark")

good luck man

[Spark]

I was wondering the other day where you were .... I thought maybe you were upset when i gave you that short break from the forum ...


Good Luck to you jerry and stay strong kid ... we are here for you