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Dear Connie,
I know the counselor said we shouldn't contact each other during our
"cooling off" period, but I couldn't wait anymore.
The day you left, I swore I'd never talk to you again. But that was just
the wounded little boy in me talking. Still, I never wanted to be the
first
one to make contact. In my fantasies, it was always you who would come
crawling back to me. I guess my pride needed that. But now I see that my
pride's cost me a lot of things. I'm tired of pretending I don't miss you.
I don't care about looking bad anymore. I don't care who makes the first
move as long as one of us does.
Maybe it's time we let our hearts speak as loudly as our hurt. And this is
what my heart says: "There's no one like you, Connie." I look for you in
the
eyes and breasts of every woman I see, but they're not you. They're not
even close.
Two weeks ago, I met this girl at Flamingos and brought her home with me.
I
don't say this to hurt you, but just to illustrate the depth of my
desperation.
She was young, maybe 19; with one of those perfect bodies that only youth
and maybe a childhood spent ice skating can give you. I mean, just a
perfect body. Tits like you wouldn't believe and an ass that just wouldn't
quit. Every man's dream, right? But as I sat on the couch being blown by
this stunner, I thought, look at the stuff we've made important in our
lives. It's all so superficial. What does a perfect body mean? Does it
make her better in bed?
Well, in this case, yes, but you see what I'm getting at. Does it make her
a better person? Does she have a better heart than my moderately
attractive
Connie? I doubt it. And I'd never really thought of that before. I don't
know, maybe I'm just growing up a little.
Later, after I'd tossed her about a half a pint of throat yogurt, I found
myself thinking, "Why do I feel so drained and empty?" It wasn't just her
flawless technique or her slutty, shameless hunger, but something else.
Some nagging feeling of loss. Why did it feel so incomplete? And then it
hit me. It didn't feel the same because you weren't there to watch. Do you
know what I mean?
Nothing feels the same without you. Jesus, Connie, I'm just going crazy
without you. And everything I do just reminds me of you.
Do you remember Carol, that single mom we met at the Holiday Inn lounge
last
year? Well, she dropped by last week with a pan of lasagna. She said she
figured I wasn't eating right without a woman around. I didn't know what
she meant till later, but that's not the real story.
Anyway, we had a few glasses of wine and the next thing you know, we're
banging away in our old bedroom. And this tart's a total monster in the
sack. She's giving me everything, you know, like a real woman does when
she's not hung up about her weight or her career and whether the kids can
hear us.
And all of a sudden, she spots that tilting mirror on your grandmother's
old
vanity. So she puts it on the floor and we straddle it, right, so we can
watch ourselves. And it's totally hot, but it makes me sad, too. Cause I
can't help thinking, "Why didn't Connie ever put the mirror on the floor?
We've had this old vanity for what, 14 years, and we never used it as a
sex toy."
Saturday, your sister drops by with my copy of the restraining order. I
mean, Vicky's just a kid and all, but she's got a pretty good head on her
shoulders and she's been a real friend to me during this painful time.
She's
given me lots of good advice about you and about women in general. She's
pulling for us to get back together, Connie, she really is.
So we're doing Jell-O shots in a hot bubble bath and talking about happier
times. Here's this teenage girl with the same DNA as you and all I can do
is think of how much she looked like you when you were 18. And that just
about makes me cry.
And then it turns out Vicky's really into the whole anal thing, that gets
me
to thinking about how many times I pressured you about trying it and how
that probably fueled some of the bitterness between us. But do you see how
even then, when I'm thrusting inside your baby sister's cinnamon ring, all
I
can do is think of you?
It's true, Connie. In your heart you must know it.
Don't you think we could start over? Just wipe out all the grievances away
and start fresh? I think we can.
If you feel the same please, please, please let me know. Otherwise, can
you
let me know where the fucking remote is.
Love, Dan
Craig P Dalla Riva, Station Manager
Qantum Communications-Florence
Suite 301
181 East Evans St.
Florence, SC 29501
I know the counselor said we shouldn't contact each other during our
"cooling off" period, but I couldn't wait anymore.
The day you left, I swore I'd never talk to you again. But that was just
the wounded little boy in me talking. Still, I never wanted to be the
first
one to make contact. In my fantasies, it was always you who would come
crawling back to me. I guess my pride needed that. But now I see that my
pride's cost me a lot of things. I'm tired of pretending I don't miss you.
I don't care about looking bad anymore. I don't care who makes the first
move as long as one of us does.
Maybe it's time we let our hearts speak as loudly as our hurt. And this is
what my heart says: "There's no one like you, Connie." I look for you in
the
eyes and breasts of every woman I see, but they're not you. They're not
even close.
Two weeks ago, I met this girl at Flamingos and brought her home with me.
I
don't say this to hurt you, but just to illustrate the depth of my
desperation.
She was young, maybe 19; with one of those perfect bodies that only youth
and maybe a childhood spent ice skating can give you. I mean, just a
perfect body. Tits like you wouldn't believe and an ass that just wouldn't
quit. Every man's dream, right? But as I sat on the couch being blown by
this stunner, I thought, look at the stuff we've made important in our
lives. It's all so superficial. What does a perfect body mean? Does it
make her better in bed?
Well, in this case, yes, but you see what I'm getting at. Does it make her
a better person? Does she have a better heart than my moderately
attractive
Connie? I doubt it. And I'd never really thought of that before. I don't
know, maybe I'm just growing up a little.
Later, after I'd tossed her about a half a pint of throat yogurt, I found
myself thinking, "Why do I feel so drained and empty?" It wasn't just her
flawless technique or her slutty, shameless hunger, but something else.
Some nagging feeling of loss. Why did it feel so incomplete? And then it
hit me. It didn't feel the same because you weren't there to watch. Do you
know what I mean?
Nothing feels the same without you. Jesus, Connie, I'm just going crazy
without you. And everything I do just reminds me of you.
Do you remember Carol, that single mom we met at the Holiday Inn lounge
last
year? Well, she dropped by last week with a pan of lasagna. She said she
figured I wasn't eating right without a woman around. I didn't know what
she meant till later, but that's not the real story.
Anyway, we had a few glasses of wine and the next thing you know, we're
banging away in our old bedroom. And this tart's a total monster in the
sack. She's giving me everything, you know, like a real woman does when
she's not hung up about her weight or her career and whether the kids can
hear us.
And all of a sudden, she spots that tilting mirror on your grandmother's
old
vanity. So she puts it on the floor and we straddle it, right, so we can
watch ourselves. And it's totally hot, but it makes me sad, too. Cause I
can't help thinking, "Why didn't Connie ever put the mirror on the floor?
We've had this old vanity for what, 14 years, and we never used it as a
sex toy."
Saturday, your sister drops by with my copy of the restraining order. I
mean, Vicky's just a kid and all, but she's got a pretty good head on her
shoulders and she's been a real friend to me during this painful time.
She's
given me lots of good advice about you and about women in general. She's
pulling for us to get back together, Connie, she really is.
So we're doing Jell-O shots in a hot bubble bath and talking about happier
times. Here's this teenage girl with the same DNA as you and all I can do
is think of how much she looked like you when you were 18. And that just
about makes me cry.
And then it turns out Vicky's really into the whole anal thing, that gets
me
to thinking about how many times I pressured you about trying it and how
that probably fueled some of the bitterness between us. But do you see how
even then, when I'm thrusting inside your baby sister's cinnamon ring, all
I
can do is think of you?
It's true, Connie. In your heart you must know it.
Don't you think we could start over? Just wipe out all the grievances away
and start fresh? I think we can.
If you feel the same please, please, please let me know. Otherwise, can
you
let me know where the fucking remote is.
Love, Dan
Craig P Dalla Riva, Station Manager
Qantum Communications-Florence
Suite 301
181 East Evans St.
Florence, SC 29501
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